I’d like to say today was interesting, considering I went from bouncing crying babies (one of my thousands of jobs), to waking up from a nap covered in sweat, to crying in the shower from a mix of hormones and an incoming wisdom tooth, to fan girling over Leandra Medine for hours into the night. Though a tad more painful than the average day, the roller coaster of emotions is pretty mundane to me by now. And here we are, finally at a point of accepting the things that have been bothering me for days; a point I eventually reach every time the coaster cart concludes it’s descent. I wish I could come up with a more original metaphor, but my mind simply doesn't have the power right now. The ride, as always, has left me exhausted, shaken and maybe even a little nauseous (that could just be the metaphor talking).
What does this roller coaster peak entail? Usually it’s a new obsession, an exciting idea or some sort of project I can’t wait to start. The second I get the idea to do something, normally involving emeroo, I jump on it instantly. If the idea strikes me at work, within minutes I’m in the bathroom making a note of it on my phone. I become instantly consumed by this excitement and passion for something new and it’s an exhilarating feeling that I truly love about myself.
The thing I wanted to “confess” to you today, or more so reflect on, is my frustration with the fact that just like my friends with dinner plans, or a delicious Italian pastry, when it comes to my ideas I’m flaky as hell. Not long after I’ve started acting on an idea, I become bored or lazy and decide watching old episodes of Gossip Girl would be a much better use of my time than seeing through on the project I once loved so much.
As much as I want this post to ignite a self revelation that will suddenly change my ways, we all know I’ll probably get distracted by a new idea before any progress can be made. Oddly, this is something I’m okay with. I simply wanted to share this annoyance with you, hoping some of you may be able to relate (please let me know in the comments below).
Despite everything I’ve said, I know I’m not a lazy person at heart, merely easily distracted. So here’s my solution, at least for now. Step 1: Act on my passions as soon as possible to get all my brewing thoughts out of my head and turned into something tangible. Step 2: accept myself exactly the way I am and consciously decide to go easy on myself when the light inside me dims, instead of feeling frustrated and defeated.
This time the low has lasted a few measly hours. I’m feeling slightly re energized despite the physical pain still mangling my jaw, but all of that is overwhelmed by a new obsession. Yes, I have one already. Acne Studios. Expect a post coming soon unless, well you know, Blair and Serena need my attention.
What you see in this post:
Body Suit - ASOS
Jeans - Grlfriend Denim "Karolina" jeans
Belt - Vintage
Sandals - Rag & Bone
Sunglasses - Rayban
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Thanks for reading.
- Emily
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