Just Some Thoughts

This was actually a school assignment, but I thought it would be relevant to share with your guys, right here.

Everyone always tells me “I could never have a blog, I just wouldn't know what to write!” To be honest, I'm surprised that I find things to write about. Yes, I have experienced some difficult things in the past few years, and this was the original reason for starting my blog. And yes, I hope to help the younger generation of girls learn how to survive their teenage years. But I still surprise myself every time I write. It's like the words come spilling out of me. Writing to me is like poring a bucket of sand, it's heavy and slow when you first start, but once you get going the words come out in one big dump.

Sometimes I wish that I had made my blog anonymous. That way I could share my exact thoughts and opinions on things going on at school or something like that. Please don't take that the wrong way, I'm not generally a gossiper. But there are things I can't post, since I know that a lot of people from school read my blog.

If I had the courage to post any and every thought that crosses my mind, I would talk about the girls who bullied me in grade seven, something I will never, ever let go. Or the boy who broke my heart, even though we hardly knew each other. Actually, I can only recollect about four conversations with said boy, so I guess you could say I was feeling just a tad hormonal the day I decided that he was likely the offspring of the devil.

You should probably know that it is mostly young girls who read my blog, around 11-13 years of age. And this is ideal as they are very easily influenced. There could be some crazy partier girl out there who's also writing a blog, subconsciously persuading these young girls to throw their teenage years down the toilet in exchange for alcohol and drugs. I realize that is a bit of an exaggeration but trust me, there are some teenagers that go completely nuts on the weekend.

In the vast sea of blogs, I want mine to be the one where people develop the ability and courage to be themselves, apply makeup the right way and never give into peer pressure.

Now that I think about it, I'm not so sure that “peer pressure” is such a problem these days. Remember in elementary school, we learned all about the many consequences of giving into “peer pressure”? Personally it scared me half to death, especially when they showed the picture of what your teeth would look like if you smoked cigarettes. I don't get why anyone would ever start doing that. Anyway, I'm sure peer pressure is a problem sometimes, but I'm almost certain that the bigger problem is actually self pressure.

Updated blog goals: To help people have the ability and courage to be themselves, apply makeup the right way, and never give into self pressure.

Personally, I struggle hugely from self pressure. For example: on new years, some of my friends wanted to go to this big party, filled with pools of drunk people and an awful mixture of smells, most of which I am proud to say I am completely uninformed of. I didn't want to be there in the slightest, but my friends did, and I didn't want to be the party pooper. You can probably tell that I'm not a partier, as I use terms like “party pooper”. I was afraid of embarrassing my friends and myself. But I tried to force myself to experience the “party scene”. As I observed, I found myself wondering “is this what people picture when they think of our generation?” I feel embarrassed and disgusted by the thought.

Ultimately, I want to offer a different perspective for the girls reading my blog. I want to be the exception to this partying generation. Young girls shouldn't be thinking the way that I sometimes think, that to be cool you have to be a partier. I want them to have the mindset that they don't have to be “cool” at all.

So even with the majority of my generation out partying, I'm content with being the observer, who inspires the younger generation to be themselves, and to strive beyond what is perceived as “cool”.